Comfort Zone

I think the human brain is so amazing seriously, like they say we only use a small percentage of it.
but i really do not agree cause i mean, the things that go through my head! uffff if only people could read minds i think all our brains would blow up
this is my place to vent, this is supposed to be my sanctuary
i wish sanctuaries really existed and lasted, the one place u feel safe and comfortable and like no one can do anything to u
as a kid, it used to be my parents bed
i used to squeeze in between the two of them (yea i was an annoying mama and daddy's girl)
but now where is that place?
when im with my friends in my room cuddled up in the bed together? (im not a lesbian, but not far from it when it comes to my friends)
when im with my boy friend cuddled up with him? - switch off out phones, lock the door, close the curtains, forget our classes/ friends/ family/ chores / concerns
i really dont know
the last one has been my haven for a while now
i just got to know him a year ago, but i feel like i know him inside out
i can predict what he's going to say and what he's going to do
but at the same time sometimes i have no idea what's going on in his head
sometimes im sitting and reading on the other side of the sofa from him
and i can feel him staring at me
but not in a creepy way (like the edward cullen in twilight for those of u, who have seen it)
in a soft, loving way that makes you blush
and then i look up and go
"ufff dont look at me like that! okay tell me what ure thinking"
but deep down i know exactly what he is thinking
and then he slowly comes closer to me and whispers in my ear with his deep husky voice
"im thinking how much i love you and how i want to lock u up and never let u go"
that sentence makes my stomach turn upside down inside me
and makes my heart tingle
and gives me goosebumps from the back of my neck all the way down to my toes
yeah just those words
without even touching me, he has that effect on me
cause i know exactly what that kind of talk leads to....