Tuesday, 24 February 2009

At the carwash

I was at the carwash yesterday with my bf, well call him M3
Anyways i never take my car to the car wash but this time went tgther it was funny
So we were waiting for both our cars to be washed and were just chatting
i was msging my frend M1 (girl) and out of the blue she said "i hate ur bf"
Now it sounds like such a small thing right?
No no no, la la la (arabic for no)! Its not, not at all
M1 is one of my best friends she can't hate my boy friend, she just Can't!
I freaaaked out, i teared up i went all sad
M3 didn't understand what was going on he was confused n probably pissed cause i msging my frend while i was with him
We have this rule where we don't text or occupy ourselves with other stuff if were tgther unless its important
And for him cause i talk to my frends all the time, he hates it i do it when were tgether
Now normally i don't, but when M1 dropped such a huge bombshell on me i couldn't help investigate further once i figured out she was being serious
i sat there sat thinking wtf just happned? i never thought M1 would ever be the one who hated M3, i always figured it would be my friend D....
anyways i asked and she gave me reasons:
- he doesnt try to understand my world
- he doesnt try to get close to my friends

but what she was saying is that she doesnt like him, but supports my relationship
now i dont see how that works? how could she hate someone but support me being with him?!?!
i mean hes my bf i love him, he makes me happy in a way tht wasnt describable
i cant have my friends hate him!
im sure D hates him too
whats going on?
do they hate him because of me?
cause all the things they know about him are through me....
did i actually self-sabotage the connection between my frends and bf, by poointing out the flaws of my bf?
why would i do that? whats my brain trying to do!? wtfffff....
did i emphasize the bad things and down play or not even mention the really good stuff?
other than his treatment of me... he really does care about my friends, he does try so hard to understand and know them
he actually remembers everything i say about them and listens when i go on for hours about details and stories that are endless and filled with excruciating details hehe....
he respects, understands, and encourages my frendship with them, he really does...
this could be a big problem if i dont fix it really soon

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